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Post by ILOVEPONIES on Dec 11, 2010 19:48:22 GMT -5
I had a friend..... which name i won't mention
she kissed me and i think i fell in love........
she killed herself (she was having problems)
And i could've stopped her...... I don't think I'll love again
At least not in the same way
It happened 2 years ago i still feel the pain
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Post by Jackson on Dec 11, 2010 20:09:10 GMT -5
Don't blame yourself. Whatever happened, I'm sure it wasn't your fault.
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 20:11:36 GMT -5
Let it go man. It's the past. They're's nothing u could have done. I felt the same way when 2 of my cats died and I broke my arm. < If I had had ONE more bite of cereal, I could have avoided a cast for ten weeks. During basketball too, my favorite sport. She wanted to go, and she would have hated you if you stopped her. And don't even THINK about killing yourself. I will go to Texas to find you and kick your ass. You have a whole life ahead of you man. Let it go. But don't totally forget. Never forget one who has died. I had a girlfriend who died in a car crash. She was bright, intelligent, funny, everything I could have wanted. She offered for me to come, and we would have stopped for food on the way. But I had All-County that day, so I couldn't go. They didn't stop to eat. If I had played ONE more note wrong at the tryout, she would still be alive today. I thought about killing myself, and kept searching for something to spend my time on. I found PogoTribe, second best day of my life. I was happy. And now I'm talking to you, with the same problem, and it makes me somehow feel better. I have another girlfriend now, everything I could have wanted. I moved on.
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Post by ILOVEPONIES on Dec 11, 2010 20:26:09 GMT -5
It sounds so easy...... let go ....... she was really spontaneous she was desperate probably a little bit drunk, I should've answered the phone... she just needed to talk
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 20:46:23 GMT -5
And I should have screwed up. Let it go.
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Post by Alex on Dec 11, 2010 21:05:22 GMT -5
You can't just tell someone to let go. That's heartless.
We know it must be hard for you. It's over now, and I know she wouldn't want you to be depressed. You will always feel pain, but you need to learn to handle it. When someone wants to kill themselves, they are going to do it. You most likely couldn't have stopped her.
You still have a lot of people that love you. We want you to not feel sad.
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 21:06:53 GMT -5
^ I agree completely. I can't find better words than that.
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Post by Freddy on Dec 11, 2010 21:21:55 GMT -5
Wait. I have a picture from Danielle somewhere around here...
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 21:22:45 GMT -5
^ very good Freddy. You should be a shrink LOL
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Post by Joey on Dec 11, 2010 21:29:11 GMT -5
Whoa, she was 14?(The age you were 2 years ago assuming she was around your age)
Thats sad man. But dont let it go, but dont let it control your life. Instead of being upset, thinking your love caused it, know that love never pushes a person to death. It's counter intuitive. The are reasons why she did it, nothing that was in your control. Know that you loving her most likely made her life that much more worth it, there was just more wrong in it that she couldnt deal with, and she had some troubles with her emotions.
And you wont ever forget it, its impossible. But the only reason you feel that way is because you love her. And thats a beautiful thing. The only reason we feel loss is because we love, and know that she felt love in some form of her life, until the very end. You gave her those few moments of happiness, and you know you had to be in her last thoughts. Love again, meet new girls. Everything happens for a reason, whether a god being chose that reason for us, or just because as humans we have emotions, but everything affects us. And this is sad, but dont live forever in the past. Make new memories, thats what any person would want for a loved one. I can assure you she did.
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 21:31:50 GMT -5
Never forget. But don't dwell too much in the past. Make new memories.
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Post by ILOVEPONIES on Dec 11, 2010 21:39:32 GMT -5
Whoa, she was 14?(The age you were 2 years ago assuming she was around your age) Thats sad man. But dont let it go, but dont let it control your life. Instead of being upset, thinking your love caused it, know that love never pushes a person to death. It's counter intuitive. The are reasons why she did it, nothing that was in your control. Know that you loving her most likely made her life that much more worth it, there was just more wrong in it that she couldnt deal with, and she had some troubles with her emotions. And you wont ever forget it, its impossible. But the only reason you feel that way is because you love her. And thats a beautiful thing. The only reason we feel loss is because we love, and know that she felt love in some form of her life, until the very end. You gave her those few moments of happiness, and you know you had to be in her last thoughts. Love again, meet new girls. Everything happens for a reason, whether a god being chose that reason for us, or just because as humans we have emotions, but everything affects us. And this is sad, but dont live forever in the past. Make new memories, thats what any person would want for a loved one. I can assure you she did. She was 14 .......It's so weird sometimes I just remember things she said or did and I smile..... Then I remember that she's gone...... she's dead..... and that I'll never see her again, I really miss her
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 21:42:11 GMT -5
She loved you right? She wouldn't want you to be sad forever. She would want you to be HAPPY.
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Post by ILOVEPONIES on Dec 11, 2010 21:50:19 GMT -5
She loved you right? She wouldn't want you to be sad forever. She would want you to be HAPPY. Did she love me ? I don't know, and I never will
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Post by Xanast on Dec 11, 2010 21:54:09 GMT -5
She did. My girl was spontaneous too.
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Post by Freddy on Dec 11, 2010 21:55:25 GMT -5
You can try reading Looking for Alaska.
(PM me.)
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Post by Jackson on Dec 11, 2010 22:13:20 GMT -5
She wouldn't want you to hold on to her like this. Instead of remembering what happened to her, remember all the good memories you had with her. I assure you you weren't the only reason she did what she did. There are always numerous reasons that people do it, which all add up to one thing.
Don't blame yourself, because if you do, you'll never be able to get past it.
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Post by Lyserg Zeroz on Dec 11, 2010 23:29:16 GMT -5
... I'm not sure of what to say... It's natural to be in pain, after all, you loved her. But don't stay like that. It's true you can't just forget it, but she wouldn't want you to be this sad over something she did, she would like you to be happy and try to move on. You said you wouldn't be able to love again (or love in the same way), but please don't think like that, I assure you, love can present itself in the most unexpected ways at the most unexpected times. Don't stay so sad, don't hold on to the painful side of life, remember she would want you to be happy. Get better and DFTBA.
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Post by Xanast on Dec 12, 2010 8:58:11 GMT -5
You can't just tell someone to let go. That's heartless. I meant "let it go, it wasn't your fault."
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